The results of many of my art projects are surprising to me. Because I expect a different outcome, or I don't think at all about what it will look like when it's finished. I just do it step by step. With some of my paintings, it takes weeks or months for me to realize what they represent and tell me about. These contents emerge from the depths of my unconscious. Hiding pieces of my former reality.
This is my first self-portrait. I started reluctantly. Why would I portray myself? I see my face in the mirror every day. Others see me in person. It's strange to think that people I don't know could hang my portrait on the wall. In fact, the permanent wax oil pastel catalysed the birth of the image. Caran d'Ache launched it this year . And I have seen rather few realistic style works made with this new material. So I wanted to see if I could create something like this with it. I thought I would experiment on my "own face" first. If it works, I'll be happy, if not, at least I've made an experiment. Well, this is the result.
Maybe one day I'll write down in detail exactly what this self-portrait means to me now, in 2025. For now, it is the vividness of my eyes that I would like to mention. That I see myself as full of life, cheerful and energetic. As someone with great energy. With which to create. Right now, paintings. Things to build with. A successful new business in a new country, meeting new people. With these energies, I can interiorise elements of a new culture and social environment alongside my existing content. It feels good to see myself optimistic. It feels good to look at myself through my self-portrait and see the combined power of my life energy and my sensibility. Just as feels good to receive confirmation that, despite all the obstacles, I have been on the right track so far and I can trust my instincts and myself.